Why Haven't You Left Yet
You've gone back and forth, back and forth, but you've known for awhile that you must say goodbye if you are to be healthy and happy. The only thing that will save your relationship is a major hallelujah experience or two.
So the real question remains - why haven't you left? It's time to be honest with yourself and remove the filters of right and wrong, niceness, tradition and fear. It's time to reclaim your own precious life.
If you could say anything you wanted out loud, without fear of sounding bad, what would you say is holding you back from leaving your relationship? Is it financial? Is it your confidence? Is it fear of judgement? Whatever the reasons are, write them all down. Facing the truth of your present emotion, without judgement, is a huge step.
There is no problem too great, no challenge too big, for your spirit to find it's way forward, if you allow it the possibility. You don't need to know the "how" just yet. It may be time to find a friend, an ally, a coach to help you find your courage and look at the possibilities and solutions in front of you. You are stronger than you realize and you are worth it. What would someone who really loves themselves do?The good news is that the best time to take counsel is BEFORE you leave so that you can plan the best departure possible. The next best time is - as soon as possible!
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